Farewell 25/07/2009
 
We said good bye today. My cousin, the saxophonist, played when she was brought into church. The tunes so pure it filled every inch of the hall and my soul. His last note left a silence that echoed the stillness inside. Nothing else needed to be said or done. For me, the music had done it all. It had reached where no words, no reason could go. 

Then, her daughter did the most courageous thing of all: She walked out in front of all those people and sang. There, for the whole world to see, she lived through her pain and created beauty. It left me feeling fragile. At the same time it gave me courage.
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Ache 20/07/2009
 
My heart aches. Last night my cousin's wife passed away and I cannot stop thinking of the two young children who now have to go through life without a mother. How on earth does one deal with that?

Oh, I can promise to be there and give them all the love and support they want, but I am not their mother. I could never be.

She was always very strict with them. Now it all makes so much sense. She did not have that much time to teach them right from wrong and so she had to teach them all she could in the short time that she would have with them.

I still see her walking down the aisle in her wedding dress. Smiling from ear to ear. None of us could ever have guessed that it would end this way, and so soon.  Yet here it is; she has gone, her husband and kids are here and we are left speechless with this ache, ache, ache...
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